Nine years ago, my three-year-old sister died in an accident at home. In public, my parents wailed and lamented, as if they wished to follow her into the grave. But behind closed doors, they’d only twist my thigh viciously, screaming, “You worthless piece of trash! Why didn’t you die with that little bitch?!” And my younger brother, who seemed to have a monstrous streak born into him, would nonchalantly rip apart the only floral dress my sister had owned, muttering, “Who told you not to give it to me?” I heard my mom’s hysterical screams as soon as I reached the apartment building entrance. “You useless brat! Where the hell have you been?!” The moment I slid the key into the lock, she yanked the door open. Her hand shot out, grabbing my hair with a brutal force, pulling me inside. “Goddammit, you little tramp! You dare play disappearing acts on me?! I’ll show you today…” My mom had always been a woman of swift and brutal action. She was the same when she hit me now, striking without a second thought. She didn’t care if the door was open or closed, how many neighbors were watching, or that I was a twenty-five-year-old woman with a right to some dignity. I took it silently. Wherever she dragged my face, I followed, my body swaying like a rag doll under her blows. It wasn’t until she tired herself out that I finally got the chance to collapse on the floor, gasping for air. She turned to spit a few times at the nosy neighbors in the hallway, then slammed the door shut and kicked me. “Speak up! Where have you been these past two days? Huh?!” Every inch of my body was burning with pain, so I tried my best to press myself against the cold concrete floor, answering her in a voice that was surprisingly calm. “I had a minor surgery, in the city. My phone got lost, so I couldn’t…” “Surgery?” My mom sneered, grabbing my hair again, and warned me, “Don’t you dare try anything funny!” I didn’t say a word, keeping my eyes fixed on the clumps of dull, yellowish hair she’d ripped from my scalp, scattered on the floor. “Go cook,” my mom said, assuming I’d surrendered. She rolled her eyes, turned, and plopped back onto the sofa. “Your brother’s about to be home from school. Hurry up.”
My name is Alice, and I’m a mukbang influencer. My mom named me Alice. She always said it came from the word ‘worthless’ or ‘bitch’ because that’s what I was to her. When I was born, she tried to suffocate me in the fields, but a local official saw her and fined our family five dollars. When I was six, the village mandated compulsory schooling, and my mom was forced to pay the fifteen dollars for my textbooks that semester. When I got my first period at twelve, I cried, thinking I was dying. My mom kicked me once before tossing me a tattered rag. She said it cost five cents a foot. It wasn’t until my brother was born that my mom stopped calling me ‘worthless’ every single day. Sometimes, when I held my baby brother and he bit my face, giggling afterward, my mom would actually praise me, saying I was at least useful for something, for comforting her precious boy. But honestly, I never liked my brother. My favorite was always my sister, a little girl who was soft and pink when she was born, who never bit my face, and whose first word was “big sister.” But she died, nine years ago. My mom said she crawled into the washing machine herself and was shredded to death. My mom even went to the appliance store in the city and caused a huge scene, sitting by the storefront for an entire month until she extorted fifty thousand dollars in compensation. Then, she and my brother moved into a new house in town. Even my dad, who’d been working out of state for years, rushed back, smoking premium cigars in the new house. They were overjoyed, practically feasting on blood money, celebrating as a family.
But unfortunately, my parents were only good at spending money, not earning it. So, they quickly set their sights on me. They wanted to sell me off to some old widower in the village, but my brother, fiddling with his new phone, coldly suggested I cash in on the mukbang trend instead. He said it would bring in money more consistently in the long run. He held up my sister’s old possessions, almost as a threat, and looked at me with contempt. “She was worthless anyway, always eating weird things. It’ll make great content for your streams.” I just stared at the things in his hand and silently agreed. My streams took off, just as they’d envisioned. They reveled in the growing numbers in their bank account each day, but they couldn’t see the scrolling insults and abuse that filled my live chat. The surgery I had this time, the one I kept secret from my mom, was because I’d eaten too much plastic. When I was discharged, the doctor told me to take good care of my body. I just smiled, not saying a word. Because I knew my mom and the others wouldn’t tolerate it. Sure enough, on the third day after I got home, my mom threw a handful of sunflower seed shells at my head. “Hey, useless! Why aren’t you streaming yet?” I was sitting on a small stool in the kitchen, washing dishes, not daring to shake off the shells from my hair. “I had surgery. The doctor told me to…” “Don’t you give me that,” she scoffed. “Tomorrow, I’m buying you a pig’s head for your stream. Oh, and your brother’s school needs tuition for his extra classes. Transfer the money to him right away!” I nodded silently. “And,” my mom added, without even looking back, “you still need to cook dinner on time. Don’t think that just because you’re making a little money from streaming, I’ll be serving you.” I scrubbed hard at the grease on a plate, lowering my head. “Okay.”
The next morning, I sat down in front of my computer and started streaming. On the table was the pig’s head my mom had carefully chosen, its skin singed and blackened, looking massive and greasy. I put on my practiced smile, ignoring the scrolling comments, and exaggeratedly said, “Oh, my darlings, looking at this pig’s head, aren’t your mouths watering? But don’t rush, don’t rush! For just one sports car, your streamer can eat it for you!” My mom sat behind the computer, her eyes filled with undisguised greed. She eagerly anticipated the stream of gifts from previous broadcasts, but to her dismay, today’s viewers weren’t buying it. They just spammed random comments, and not a single sports car appeared. So I kept repeating the same phrases, trying to entice them, while my mom stared at me, her gaze a silent pressure. I knew that if the camera weren’t there, she would have pounced on me, hitting me and screaming about what a worthless piece of trash I was. Perhaps from years of beatings, I unconsciously started to tremble in front of the camera. 【Is this girl poisoned from eating? LOL, why is she shaking?】 【Who knows, she’s disgusting to watch!】 【Can the mod ban her? This pig’s head is making me sick.】 I scanned the comments line by line, my smile unwavering. While repeating my lines, I subtly glanced at my mom. She signaled me to eat first to attract more traffic. So I smiled flatteringly at the camera, putting on a sweet, high-pitched voice. “My darlings are chatting so happily! You all forgot to send Alice a sports car! But it’s okay, today’s a big giveaway stream! Alice will take a bite for all of you first, okay?” 【Is this girl blind?】 【She’s got some nerve.】 I adjusted the camera, zooming in on my bright red lips, and slowly bit into the singed, blackened ear of the pig’s head. But in the next second, my brother burst in, and right in front of the camera, he slammed his hand across my face, hard. “Worthless bitch!” I stumbled, collapsing to the floor. The pig’s head, with a smudge of my lipstick, rolled onto the ground.
Caleb was furious. Slamming me to the ground wasn’t enough. He kicked me several times, spitting out the most vile insults. My mom rushed forward, immediately turning off the stream, then tenderly picked up the pig’s head, dusting it off. Her face darkened as she stood by, watching me writhe in pain on the floor. After Caleb finally vented his anger, she came over and added another slap, punishing me for my poor streaming performance that day. She called me a “worthless good-for-nothing” before turning to ask Caleb, with concern, what was wrong. Blood dripped steadily from my nose onto the floor. I didn’t bother to wipe it, just watched it slowly collect into a small pool. “She transferred the money directly to my teacher!” Caleb shouted hysterically at my mom. “Didn’t I tell you to make her transfer it directly to ME?!” He kicked over the ‘fairy chair’ I used for streaming, pacing furiously. “Now look what happened?! Jax and his guys were looking for me outside, demanding their money back! What am I going to do?! Huh?!” He roared several more times, then his tone shifted, and he started to cry, pulling my mom’s hand and kneeling. “Mom, Mom, Mom, save me, save me… They’ll kill me! Please save me, please…” I remained with my head turned, unmoving, but I knew my mom was surely heartbroken for Caleb right now, maybe even shedding a few tears. “Okay, okay, Mom, Mom will save you,” my mom promised repeatedly, quickly helping Caleb up. After comforting him for a few more minutes, she came over and, without a word, started patting down my pockets. My entire body ached so badly that I had no strength to resist. In the end, I could only watch helplessly as my mom took the six hundred twenty-five dollars I’d hidden in my bra. She gave it to Caleb, telling him to use it for an emergency, to go plead with Jax for a few more days of extension. “Three days, just three days!” My mom held Caleb’s hand, her eyes filled with aching tenderness. “Mom will make sure this worthless good-for-nothing gets all the money for you, okay? Don’t be afraid, my little Caleb.” Caleb and my mom left. As he walked out, he didn’t forget to kick me one last time. I lay on the floor, I don’t know how long, before struggling to get up. I reopened the computer, watching the rolling comments in the live stream room. A notification chimed in the bottom right corner. —My virus is pretty good, huh! Guaranteed your mom won’t know you’re still streaming ( ・⊝・∞) I stretched my lips into an ugly smile and replied: Good.
Caleb gambling wasn’t anything new in my family. In fact, my mom often secretly gave him money to cover his debts. All because he was the son she held dear. As for me, I was forced to display my severe pica to everyone daily, endure online abuse, and earn money for them, simply because I was a daughter. And my three-year-old sister, even after being tragically shredded to death in the washing machine, they weren’t sad at all. Her makeshift funeral was only for the sake of the reporters, also because she was a daughter. They shamelessly enjoyed all the benefits my sister and I brought them, yet they were too stingy to give us anything in return. Why? I calmly displayed my fresh wounds to the camera, without saying a word, then simply turned off the stream. I made a rare post in the fan group the platform had created for me. [Alice]: Darlings, see you tomorrow night!
The next morning, I handed my mom a crumpled bankbook. My mom was overjoyed, quickly flipping it open. “How much is in here? Enough for Caleb to pay off his debts?” I nodded. “Enough…” “Good!” My mom excitedly stood up, clutching the bankbook, and put on her coat to leave. But as she was about to close the door, she turned back and shot me a venomous glare. “I knew you were hiding money! Just you wait till I get back, I’ll deal with you!” I stood meekly in place, head bowed. Once my mom truly left, I picked out a gaudy, floral dress my mom had bought for my streams, put it on, and pushed open the front door. This neighborhood was full of old apartment buildings, and a maze of alleyways snaked out the back. As I stepped into one, someone eagerly wrapped their arms around me from behind. The man’s scent instantly filled my nostrils, his stubbled face pressed tightly against mine. “Baby, you’re finally here. I missed you so much.” I remained stiff in his embrace, my voice dripping with honey. “Here I am, aren’t I?” The man chuckled, then moved to face me, lifting my chin to kiss me. But his eyes widened when he saw the bruise on my lip. “Caleb did this?” His eyes filled with concern. I lowered my gaze, not answering. The man understood my silence and cursed loudly. “He came begging me for an extension this morning! And he dared to hit you! If I don’t beat the hell out of that bastard, what’s my name, Jax, even worth?!” But I gently covered his mouth with my hand, shaking my head. “Don’t, Ash. He’s my brother.” Jax held my hand, caressing it carefully. “Baby, you’re too kind! You treat him like a brother, but he doesn’t see you as a sister. He hit you so hard, it breaks my heart to see it!” My face showed distress. After thinking for a moment, I stood on my tiptoes and lightly kissed the corner of his mouth, comforting him. “Be good.”
When I got home, my mom still wasn’t back. I went into the bathroom and stared blankly at my reflection in the mirror, then began scrubbing viciously at the spots Jax had touched. So dirty, too dirty. I didn’t stop until my skin was raw and broken. Only then did I feel a sense of relief. Jax was the ‘Blade’ Caleb had mentioned. He was just a petty thug from our old village. After our family moved here, he followed, and he only got deeper into the underworld, becoming a small-time loan shark in this area. But no one knew that Jax had liked me for many years. A few years ago, when I met Jax again here, he saw with his own eyes how Caleb was beating me. He scared Caleb away, but I stopped him from retaliating. After Caleb fled in a panic, for the first time, I didn’t resist Jax’s touch. Instead, I weakly collapsed into his arms, crying and telling him how much I hurt. Jax was startled and immediately wanted to take me to the hospital. But I told him all I needed was for him to hold me and stay with me. From then on, this unspoken relationship was established. Although I never let Jax directly confront Caleb, every time I showed him my injuries, I knew Caleb would suffer a brutal beating. In fact, Caleb’s frequent visits to underground casinos and his reliance on high-interest loans since junior high were all Jax’s doing. It’s quite laughable. Jax wasn’t a good person, yet he fell for someone like me, who only pretended to be good for him.
hat evening, the live stream started on time. Tonight, my mom had given me a bag full of leaves. She’d picked them from the locust tree downstairs at the apartment building on her way back from the bank. Many of them still had dirt clinging to them. But my mom said that made them fresh, more interesting. 【Is this girl eating leaves today? Is she crazy?】 【Her pica is so severe, someone help her see a doctor.】 【She’s probably just using this for clicks! So shameless!】 I smiled, reading the comments, repeating my usual lines, but still, no one seemed willing to send gifts. My mom’s face grew anxious. She even stood up, as if she wanted to rush to the camera herself and urge the viewers to send gifts. “Eat! Eat first!” she mouthed to me. My smile didn’t falter. I immediately picked up a leaf, choosing the one with the most dirt on it, put it in my mouth, and chewed it with relish. 【Holy crap, she really ate it! Savage!】 【Won’t that cause health problems? Doesn’t she have family to stop her?】 【You must be new. Didn’t you watch last night’s stream, LOL?】 The strong, earthy taste of dirt spread in my mouth, but I didn’t even flinch. I had eaten dirt before, the gritty sand from our old village home. Because there was simply nothing else to eat. My sister had just been born then, and my dad, working out of state, had been furious on the phone, yelling at my mom. So my mom was in a bad mood too. She ignored my sister’s wailing for milk and instead bought half a chicken to make soup for Caleb. All I had was half a chicken head, earned with a slap to the face, which I traded with the grandma next door, who raised two sheep, for a small bowl of goat milk for my sister. But I was so hungry. So, in my desperation, I scooped up the dirt from the ground and ate it. That’s when my pica tore open its first crack. In front of the camera, just as I swallowed the leaf, someone finally sent a sports car. My mom’s face lit up with delight, signaling me to quickly thank them. So, I stretched my throat, hoarse from the dirt, and recited the long string of thank yous without pausing for breath. My mom wanted me to press on, to keep eating, but then, my stream was suddenly shut down. In the end, my mom didn’t hit me, probably because of the sports car. She just gave me a cold glare and muttered “worthless good-for-nothing” as she closed the door. I sat in the chair, staring blankly at the black screen of my computer. The room was eerily quiet. But not long after, I heard my brother’s cursing from his video game, followed by my mom’s solicitous fussing over him, and then, a faint aroma of chicken drifted in. I sniffed for a while, then couldn’t hold it back anymore and started to vomit. My stomach churned and lurched until I thought I’d thrown up all my stomach acid, then it finally stopped. My phone, its screen cracked like a spiderweb, lit up. It was that person from yesterday, sing. —I reported it just in time, right? ₍˄·͈༝·͈˄*₎◞ ̑̑ I ignored the message, then reopened my computer and posted in the fan group. [Alice]: Darlings, I got reported! See you in three days, don’t miss it!
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